thinking aloud

i don't know why i wish to write this today ..i do not know if its just the availability of time or a desire to write...i paused ..i turned and looked over my shoulder a shadow followed me ...have u changed it asked? ...hmmm...the child in me is beginning to grow up, i miss those days but i love my present; i yearn for the past but i do not wish to give up this moment ..for through hardwork and perseverance and also with blessings and love i have built a world -"my own" ....