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i am writing after ages today...just felt like putting my thoughts down..i guess i come back to my blog whenever i feel low..just had a root canal this mroning ....it hurts ! and i so wish mummy was here just to force me to eat something before i fell asleep..just to let me feel comfortable even with all this pain...my head hurts...my tooth hurts and i miss my Mother!

dare to fly Continental??

i am a person who dreams of going places but dreads the thought of travelling, lately my life has left me flying at a frequency that even i think is unreal. I always thought that the reason i dreaded flights and airports was because people were always parting at airports and as my Guy keeps telling me- why do i forget that people also meet at these terminals. Well for some odd reason the going away always seemed to last longer in my thoughts. As i learnt to travel better i was beginning to get over my fear but i bumped into some flight nightmares that i was left wondering if airlines care about anything other than money.

After struggling for hours and spending what seemed like a lot, me and my Fiancee' bought tickets to New Orleans so he could be with me during a conference where i was presenting. He even agreed to go through the pain of taking a red eye flight so we would be on a 10.30 flight from Houston together to New orleans. But the Murphy's law always holds true for flights and his flight was delayed for 6 hours- no explanations given. when i landed from New york I realized he would miss the connecting flight and requested the airlines to put him on another flight and they did nothing except say all flights are overbooked till sunday and he can only put on stand by, I realized they had 40/50 people on stand by on every flight because his was not the only flight that had been delayed.

i saw frustrated travelers at every corner and agents that were only saying we can't help it..some people even asked to fly back to their original destination because they had been delayed for so long on sat flights and were going back on sunday.i asked them to give my confirmed seat to someone on standby and was offered no compensation even though they had offered me compensation in New York to volunteer. We rented a car and drove 6 hours just so he would not spend an entire day in Houston and i would make it in time for a sunday morning 8 am presentation, other than the price of renting we had to pay a 150 Dollar surcharge for returning the car in another city. We were upset but decided to deal with it. But well Continental had a bigger surprise for us, when he got to the airport monday morning his return flight tickets had been cancelled because he didn't take the last flight. They said since this was a part of the contract we had agreed on while buying tickets they could not help us. After a long debate they did eventually put him back on the flight because luckily there were seats available..but i was left spellbound.

after all that we had to deal with? is it possible for a business to sell a consumer 2 products and if i don't use one cancel the other..we had already paid for this flight ..was it not their responsibility to even inform us before they cancelled?? I agree that their are terms and conditions that we sign when we purchase but ... !!

tell me about your flight traumas.. is it just me or do you also have a story to tell??

thoughts on a random saturday

what goes through our heads ? sometimes my own thoughts and emotions leave me spell bound, I know what the world is telling me is practical, is real and yet the dream inside me lives on. turning back to look at it hurts but so does letting go. I want to smile and say so what? I know its selfish and i have more valuable treasures to hold on to..
a small accomplishment ..i don't even dream big anymore and yet it feels good..! for a moment i pause, i wish Dad stood with me, i hear the pride in his voice as he would have said my daughter did this..i look back to days when he would drive 6 hours at the drop of a hat just to share my birthday!
i wonder where i will be for my birthday this year..i wonder who will be with me...but i know i have better things to think about!
and reasons to feel happy about and yet .........i wonder.............

what do we take away?

as we walk away from relationships... after years of sharing existence, dreams, aspirations and fears what is it that we take away? when my friend packed to leave her apartment that she ahd shared i wondered what should she pack? i wanted her to leave behind everything that would remind her of the past, she wanted to hold on ... How does one decide what to leave behind when so much has been lost? remind me of that song" mera kuch samaan tumhare paas pada hai.."

As another day dawns i hope she finds happiness in serenity for that is what she truly deserves..

someone special walks into your life and you put everything on pause for nothing matters more than the life you share together. you cherish moments of togetherness, look forward to being there for him and knowing that there is someone to go back to. you share joys, sorrows, accomplishments and defeats... Life is perfect! 

circumstances change, relationships shatter and he leaves an emptiness behind..How do you start all over again?

As me and my friend stand at these 2 ends ...i just want to be there for her..i want to be her strength in tough times and protect her ... i want to put that innocent smile back where it truly belongs.. i want her to live without fear ..for that is what she deserves!

Dreams do come true ..God watches over our world and fills it with happiness just as long as we have the faith to wait for that miracle..but strangely enough my miracle happened when i had lost the faith..!
As i look at the sprakle on my left ring finger, i smile and happily cherish the fact that I am now engaged to the world's most amazing person... I have made mistakes, I have also hurt people..i am sorry!
as i write this post..a weird emotion took over me..a fear of the uncertain... after all this time i realized it'll be an all new battle.. i'll be a stranger all over again and will be even father away from home... will i be able to do this? find a new world? i have always believed love gives us the energy to do the impossible..i hope i have the power to do it all.. !
God gifted me with Love and a new family.. i want to be able to live up to it all! why then do i miss Mom and Dad today?

the queens

suddenly you left a vaccum behind .. every moment of my life was shared with you, i shared my joys, my sorrows, my accomplishments, my failures, my grudges with you. As you walked away without a word i watched. You had said i was your best friend forever.. how could forever end? I know you have your reasons, I know!. I promise not to call you till you ask for me. i watched you leave and not look back, a little wish knocked on my door and said atleast turn around and leave me a memory. 

As i walked the aisles of the pharmacy this morning looking for medicine i saw stickers and remembered how you always had the nicest collection for the little ones. they say you did the right thing, i should just let you go.. I am angry, I am sad, I am waiting for you to return and share this special phase in my life..! you promised when it happened you would share it with me... 

wish you al the Joy on earth but i can't stop missing you...!