the rain

washed away my tears,
took away all i ever had
holding on to my fears
speechless, i smiled,
surrendered my past,
released the grip
watched helpless
as the little butterfly
flew away and with it,
my walls fell apart.
insecure, apprehensive,
alone again
wanting to hold on
just a moment longer.
too exhausted to complete this poem...hopefully it'll find a happy ending soon..i left downstate today and i felt so scared..like somebody just took my world away from me.. it wasn't the institution but it was the people.. it was the knowledge that they were there through all the hard times...