just another day

the same feeling.the knowledge that in a world of people from all backgrounds, i am surrounded by just one emotion-"my solitude"....but then don't they say that once you are at your worst, things can only get better my explanation is that only happens with some people..with people like me ..things just stay at their worst -with time we adapt to life at its worst and smile even despite it and reach a state of contentment...a familiarity even with the darkness.....and you may not believe it but it happens ....

growing up

Get this in mind early: We never grow up.
Richard Bach
i always agreed with Richard Bach and refused to grow up...the child in me lived on..and thats the reason just anything can make me smile or cry ...surrounded by kids..i comti ue to believe the world is beautiful from a child's eye its the groen up that add gloom to it...

once again

the same old emotions grabbed at my life..the same questions..the same solitude and yet a weird eery feeling left me in an unkown territory!! why was i so apprehensive, so uncertain and yet i stared at the window awaiting the sunlight to brighten my day!!

Barbie

went to a toy store yesterday to find some dolls..after a lifetime i was looking for a doll. I looked and finally decided i was going to get a Barbie, the little kid in me smiled, that first barbie-the emotions the enthusiasm, I could feel it all. I remembered standing in the airport and rejecting every other toy simply because I wanted a Barbie..
it must have been 19 years back but i can still remember that moment...funny!!
and then i went to that big toy store in london and after having been through 5 floors of toys all i wanted was the doctor Barbie...
childhood!!
i am going to meet m friend after 7 mths....i can't wait to sit down and have the bhelpuri conversation...i know after that the whole world will seem positive and beautiful...good friends and some bhel puri!!