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unbelievably beautiful...frustrated and tired i returned only to find a patient friend waiting for me..it was a feeling beyond words..joy had once again touched my life..like a baby i poured out the happenings of my day and she heard patient ..then smiled and said "forget it" and i did..for a friend is indeed the world's greatest treasure...

what makes it worthwhile?

long calls..never ending nights!! why do we do it?..was trying to finish rounds so i could get a few minutes to sit down and eat when i noticed this 7 day old crying for attention...she wanted to be fed and when i gave her the bottle she sucked like crazy...and i burped her and she fell asleep ..my junior had been wondering where i had disappeared??
a child smiles back ...a baby grasps my finger...a little 7 yr old fireman gives me a hug before leaving the hospital..thats why i do it?

eternity

eternity!! is far far away and so is home..but its the one thought that keeps one going...we struggle from moment to moment giving up at times and moving on at others..
we turn off and shrink into a world that is just ours and we believe in tomorrow...the solitude doesn't hurt; the absence does...the dream survives..

hmm..

i have recovered ..learnt my lessons..every moment in life is a discovery..we learn more about life,about people and about this world...

stranger

you called yourself a friend and you hurt me more than an enemy could..you ruined my emotions under your ego!! I should have known ..why did i care??

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tired and defeated..yes!! very defeated i return to my blog!! I am feeling lonely and very weak..i need a friend to listen and comfort ..

overwhelmed by memories..surrounded by solitude ..a happiness a serenity that is so complete..
an absence surrounds me but i know that you are thinking about me..for the last 26 years you have thought about me every single moment...ma papa i miss you today but with a big smile on my face..
a few more moments for the date to switch and like every year i sit here thinking about my past and thanking the present for all it has given me...with every sunrise the Lord has given me a reason to smile..with every task he has given me the energy to move on...i have faith!!
as life gave me another test and i was left alone standing on crossroads i rented this little apartment which became my heaven, it filled my life... i built this little place alone and strong...
i learnt to fill my lonely moments with joy....Yes!! its true so much has changed...

thanks

its sad that i hate writing looooooong posts cos i have so much to say..first and foremost a big thanks to all the amazing bloggers who make my life complete? its true whenever i need to share something-joy or sorrow i run to my blog and with your lovely comments you all make my day!!
some memories never die I am back on the floor these days and everyday i think of my little angel she is definitely my dearest patient..i loved her and all the nurses used to address her as my daughter...i miss u!!! i know u will never know, never remember me but you will always be in my thoughts...someday when you grow up, your parents tell you the story of the months you spent in the hospital..but..nobody will tell you how we stole every free minute of our days to spend it with you..or how after i finished work i wud stay back and take u on a stroll or how every morning i visited you and you looked at me with a smile and stretched your arms expressing your deisre to be held...God Bless you my little one!!
in 2 days i will be a year older..isn't that crazy!!
p.s. i will answer the tag and yes this post is dedicated to mindinside

AN OLD TAG

This was an old tag that i had promised myself i wud answer-so here it goes:
i don't remember how many it was but i was supposed to list weird things about me...so here it goes..
i am a child with a mature outlook...i complain about my solitude but i am an introvert who gets lost in a crowd...i forget to eat...i still love my birthday and haven't realised that every year i grow older...i wear pink socks..he he...and...

day 1..rejection 1 and lots more

day 1 as floor senior i was stressed and very restless and then a baby lost his i.v...what a turmoil? running around for vaccines..flu shots..admissions and all in all just driving the world and myself crazy and then i returned home to find my first rejection letter...its a beginning!!! lets see how things go!! and now its tine to grab a snack and hit my books..

when the world seemed gloomy

when the world seemed gloomy and dark you appeared out of no where and brought back that smile ..you gave me a reason to move on..you didn't say much..you just gave me the gift of concern..a precious gift!! thanks..