why is it that when one person leaves it changes your entire world? suddenly nothing seems right!! every smile seems like a mistake and tears fill your eyes however you evade them..
i must gather the courage to move on but with every passing moment i become weaker and surrender to the absence of my friend, philosopher and guide.. I look forward to spending time at the NICU ...the babies that seem to understand my silence ..and the joy that this is the place where you had taught me so much...people think i am weird for who can find satisfaction in the silence of the nicu or should i say in the beeps of the nicu but...a little hope is all one needs to keep going and i have faith in tomorrow...

miss you

suddenly it seemed like a part of me would never be the same again..like i would never smile freely ..i would never look up to a new day with that confidence..why are good byes so painful? and honestly why had we never talked about it? we had thought that with a smile on our face hiding the truth and a little bit of denial we would win over destiny!! Should have known that that never happens,when reality knocks we have to bow down and accept it..thats the truth of life...
the tears will give up with time but the emptiness will forever remain for nobody can replace you ..sometimes i wish i could be the person who takes life as "out of sight- out of mind" ...you had become my family..and i had never felt lonely with you around...but now...
i'll miss you!! but i hope this is for the better i wish you good luck for your new beginnings!!

to MY FATHER

If i were to say that i remember how you held my hand and taught me how to take my first steps it would be an untruthful statement just because my memory doesn't go back to those years...but somewhere somehow i just know it to be true and i want you to know that all those little lessons i have learnt from you have made a big difference.If it wasn't for the story of the warrior who burnt his ships i would have given up many a times without trying.If it wasn't for the encouragement and the faith you had in me even when i failed i would have never been able to go on.For all the smiles, for all the joys for all the lessons, for the never faltering love ...papa you will always be special.
the hug that awaits me when i step out of the airport , for the voice that answers my phone calls whatever time of day it may be, or the hearing that picks up the slightest bit of pain in my voice...and for so much more..papa you will always be special.

long time

its been a long time since i wrote...every time things get tough a little child smiles at you and you know the struggle was worth it ...everytime a friend succeeds the joy brightens my day...
its true it takes all kinds of people to make this world...and it takes just a little effort to count your blessings...
as a stranger to this city i had walked in 2 years back...apprehensive..as a girl asked me " so u basically just packed ur bags and came here? what if you don't like it here?" but a few people stood by me..showed me the way!! and i just wanted to say if it wasn't for the concern,the affection and the understanding...i would have not been able to unpack....
thanks!!