Wednesday, December 31, 2008

i love NY!!

4 years in this city..memories, dreams, fears, accomplishments,failures, discoveries, a few dates too!! but above all an affair that'll last a lifetime..relax! i am talking about my love for NY city!!
why do i love ny? 4 years back i discovered this city walking on random streets, i discovered uptown and downtown, streets and blocks and yes the subway lines..the green (4,5,6) or the yellow(R,N,Q).. sometimes i am in the city to find my way in the city, i have to imagine  myself on a subway map!!
i love New York for a number of reasons, i love it for its 4 seasons ... i like the summer when people bask in the radiance, when slippers and tank tops appear ..when children build sand castles on the beach.. i Love spring with the tulips...the colors, the fragrance, the trees loaded with flowers, new leaves...a new inspiration to go on!! 
and then the seaason that is,red, yellow...the leaves...the colors...the dreams..every morning you rise to a different color!
last but noth the least..the snow covered world, the christmas spirit, the lights the music...
ny gave me a tough time , it taught me more than any place on earth...but i love NY!!

Saturday, December 27, 2008


the relationship started 4 years back when i could not afford paying for a reall cup so i would stop and buy one of those bottled drinks and then once i started earning..the mocha became an indispensable part of my life.. i often wondered if it was for the coffee or just for the way the cafe made me feel that i spent hours my old starbucks in brooklyn on bayridge parkway i made friends with all the baristas and they would get my cup ready even without my asking fact the way hey remebered made me feel so good.. they became friends and i spent hours their studying for exams and presentations..i ran in and out on my way to work in the morning and sometimes met up with friends there.. when it was time to leave brooklyn i was tormented and one day after having cried for hours walked to get my cup of mocha and the guy whose name i don't know but who is one of my great silent friends...never asked me what happened? but he expressed his concern when he walked around the bar to bring my cup to my table...
when i looked for apartments in westchester near a starbucks was important than livin near a grocery store and i started visiting this store in ossining the same way...
and as i sit here today alone yet surrounded by the world i looked at my cup of mocha..and i read this-
" I used to feel so alone in the city.All those gazillions of people and then me, on the outside.Because how do you meet a new person? I was very stumped by this for many years.And then i realized, you just say "hi." They may ignore you.Or you may marry them. And that possibility is worth that one word.-Augusten Burroughs
so"hi" there...hope you are having a good day!! 
thanks Starbucks!! 

Friday, December 26, 2008

lets start all over again

its one of those days when we wake up to rediscover ourselves ..we walk into the world once again forgetting the pain behind and ready to smile back ...i decided its my life and nobody has the right to ruin it..i'll live it to the fullest whether alone or with friends..
a good book, a nice lunch, working hard and relaxing...its time to rejoice my small accomplishments and find a reason to smile..for its only when you smile can you gift a smile..:) 

Thursday, December 25, 2008

so much to write!!

the world is bubbling with christmas spirit..i am happy to be home alone ...enjoying my silence today ..after a long time..just sat back and watched a few movies back to back.. i made a small new year resolution to rediscover myself.. joined he gym.. worked on organising my life.. and filling myself with faith .. the same faith that had given me the courage to some here .. its been with me must have just disappeared.. and i know i'll find the same old excuses accepted..
if i dared to dream..i'll do it!!!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

just thinking

why does life leave us with nothing but thoughts and memories? why does life leave us hurt yet hoping things will look better? why does life leave us yearning for a friend who would understand our silence?
why does life leave us with a blog to share our thoughts with?
a weekend is my biggest fear now!! i'd rather be at work than anywhere else and i flip at the thought of going home..and seeing my own reflection in the mirror..i pray for the phone to ring i know how right jagjit was when he wrote that ghazal...apni marzi se kahaan apne safar ke hum hai....