just ..

forever i have tried to be there for someone or the other i have lived my life believing that giving joy will bring back happiness..but now i am beginning to wonder are their really any laws of this world ?? or is it just a struggle for existence??

have you ever felt trapped in your existence? is that the way these kids feel ? born with motor and speech problems..unable to put their thoughts in words..do they live a life caged; searching for a means of expression..a means to let us know how they feel? every moment they struggle to achieve the impossible..the normal my friend is quite a miracle..

just me

suddenly you realise you are a stranger in your own world...you miss "home" ..and all you wish for is a few moments with your past...
I caught a glimpse of your reflection as i looked at the mirror and I noticed that little tear hidden in the corner of your eye....(just a little beautiful line that i thought of this morning)
As November dawns I feel both the excitement of my birthday being around the corner(hint!!!) and the sorrow of being away from home..
suddenly walking down the subway you pause..it hits you..a memory -a moment from the past ..it seemed so real..so true and then it disappeared...leaving a bitter sweetness behind....i look around and the world is moving on...
the silence surrounds you..you wait to hear one familiar voice ...u wait...

living in a fantasy

living in a fantasy world..a dream that keeps us alive ..sometimes i wonder if all of life is an illusion..

SO MUCH TO SAY

Sometimes there is so much to say that its difficult to pin point where should one start..i'll start by saying that i had a lovely diwali...though the feeling of being away from home kept me enveloped all day...spent the day with friends and every moment was beautiful ....
i visited the school for deaf children today and was overwhelmed by wht i saw..these kids communicated so well in their own language that the only person who felt out of place was yours truly...it was like i was in a land where people spoke a different language and amazingly enough they were all bilingual and could hear me but i was deaf...could not understand them and felt like just standing there and giving these children a big round of applause for they had achieved the impossible..they had struggled and defeated their handicap...they were truly"amazing"

happy diwali

hi..blog world..there is so much to say but for the moment i'll just say-Happy Diwali....

kahin door jab din dhal jaaye

the sun said good bye for the day darkness filled my room and i sat in front of my laptop working and hoping a friend would call..but some day dreams remain just that-dreams!!
I Love silence and i love my solitude but i miss being thought of...for like every human being i am selfish and i await...like Jagjit says "kabhi yuN bhi to ho dariyaa kaa saahil ho, poore chaaNd ki raat ho aur tum aao"

gift a smile

a smile is a valuable gift .. a treasure more valuable than anything on earth!!
nothing like being heard..nothing like saying all u wish to say without the fear of judgement!!!
take a moment today to listen to someone..hear their silence!!

takin a break from life

a beautiful journey 

change

unknowingly we get attached... i realised today that it was so true, over the last 2 years alot of things had changed. the little girl who had just packed her bags and landed in an unknown territory was no more a stranger; she had built a world of dreams and hopes. new friends, new relations and an allnew world of possibilities. had the roots grown weaker as the stems had sprouted? no the bonds to the past just became stronger with every passing moment . the sights and sounds had not faded; for after all they are the essence of her existence.

hope

on a journey to an unknown destination; a little bird spread her wings. no fear, no desires;just a vision. she paused she wanted to change the world -could she? . she looked at the vast stretch that lay around her ..even in the darkness all she could see was that little fleck of light ...all she could believe in was hope..surrender was not an option giving up not a choice.alone but not defeated, her strength was her faith