Tuesday, December 15, 2009

procastination queen

If there is an award for procastination i would win it without doubt and prove that nobody can beat me to it! 
sitting on my desk ..i have a million things on my to do list but i need someone to tell me where should i start ..each one seems to be so important and so close to impossible!!
Just came across illusions again..it has been sitting on my desk for the last few days ..so lets try that old time trick..flip a page ..and read..."every person all the events of your life are there because you have drawn them there"
i really must stop day dreaming..and get down to work... but i have to say i feel really lucky to have the people in my world.. sometimes i wonder if i truly deserve the joy i am getting!! 
feels like a dream!:)

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

for my friend

the tear in your eye breaks my heart.. i want to resolve every problem that brushes by you and yet i know i can only stand beside you as you find your way. together we have walked the streets and the stores, we have put in i.v lines in fighting children and taken histories at 2 a.m in the morning. Remember that first night we worked together -  i was a lost intern not knowing what my existence really meant, mummy was in the hospital and you talked me through the night. the million times you ran out from the PICU to give me guidance on the floor or when you bought me orange juice cause you knew i would have skipped lunch. always the one with the right diagnoses, the one who had time to show you how, the one who knew every child personally- you have been the best. we have lived so many special times together - the walks in bayridge, bargain hunting, bear mountain, watching chick flicks, the tree at Rockefeller, Mary Poppins..the list is endless! 
2 Mochas...! my friend I just want you to know that I have faith in you and even though you don't see it at this moment- "you are a great person!"
quoting from a poem i read a long time back and can't remember who wrote it
" and since i have no gold to give, and love alone can make ammends my only wish is -God make me worthy of my friends" 

Monday, December 07, 2009

my tribute

the human mind is a maze that you can never resolve..! in its millions of alleys you find questions, faiths and fears that are beyond imagination.It unfolds and does the least expected, it hides its moves and surfaces unknown. 
Looking back i see through the glass wall and i see memories that i treasure and hold close and moments that i wish had never existed and yet i know that that was how i learned to find answers!
She knocks on my subconscious, i desire for just one moment with her, she plays through the cords of special memories and as i look at those old pictures i know thats all i have of her. They say we must all move on, I did too -i go through the day and rejoice at the happiness life is bringing me but sometimes in silent moments i wish for just one moment with her. 
the stories that remain untold, the desires that were never expressed, the laughter that will echo in my soul forever... and yet i know i must move on! why then do i ask for just one more moment with her?
this had to be written ...!! its my tribute to a lady whose spirit will vibrate through the soul of my family forever.