quiet moments

i was driving down saw mill when the thought hit me ..wht am i looking for? and i didn't have an answer for just that one moment life was empty and yet so complete..

i can't wait to see my parents ... a big hug.. a little bit of attention.. somebody who worries ... just the little small things that add up to make us a family...

after all these years of living away me and my brother have eveolved into different people and yet when we are together we understand each other perfectly..

and it was amazing when he said..i hate apples..just can't eat anything that has tht flavour...i smiled cos i felt the same way!! 

old traditions leave a deep mark on our souls...as i grabbed a sandwich for dinner the night before my exam, loneliness hit me in the belly !! there was nobody to stand by me..nobody to go home to and say i can't do it!! but at the same moment a little memory made me smile ..when we were going for exams mummy wud always give us some yogurt with sugar ..she used to say its auspicious. well!! subway stocks stawberry yogurt and the sight made me smile..and yes i did grab a spoon of yogurt before i left to take my exam..such is life!! 

its diwali..its the day of candles!! family..happiness and traditions!! and well i miss it all!!

comfort zone

as exam fear enveloped i decided it was time to reach out for my comfort zone..it was a long drive but i decided to return to bay ridge and study with priya in my very own starbucks in our little study corner..old memories can be comforting...i remembered the mornings i had stopped here as i walked to the subway ..the number of time we had used this as our meet up point to study or just as we waited for a cab..the people, the fragrance, the joy of being here!! as i parked across from 225 i looked back on the days we had spent there ...the warmth of that kitchen, romal and me cooking together , running into a friend as we walked down 3rd avenue and hours of solitude here at starbucks!! wish me luck people 2 days to the exam!! i really want to pass!!

yellow light!!

have you ever tried to beat that yellow light!! so many time in life we struggle to accomplish things that were probably not meant to be.. at work, in realtionships, on routes, in thos journey called life!! sometimes we make it at others we give up ...but i just wondered if we just try too hard !! and make ourselves miserable..should we just take that break switch radio stations and wait for life to give us the green signal!!

missing home and the pampering before exams!! where did my worl vanish?? 

as i walked through Bryant park...memories and thoughts filled my head..it had been almost 4 years since i had first walked the streets and in these years life had changed..

friends had come by and walked out..i looked around so many people, different cultures, different backgrounds, none of them had a clue who i was and yet i shared this one last moment of sunny afternoon in Bryant park before we walked to a cold winter with them..

i knew that there was a starbucks at that corner and the D train had a subway stop there..i knew i was just a few blocks from grand central and i knew where the closest barnes n noble was ...life had taught me the stranger with no sense of direction to trust my instincts and be prepared for a new tomorrow..

i survived with a smile ...and as i walked back to priya the smile on her face brought back warmth and i knew the journey may be hard but it had given me so much to treasure..

i am not scared, i am happy and despite all the questions i was ready for tomorrow...

oh btw i did a little ashtami tradition today i made halwa and did puja and at for dinner we had channa..so i guess u can take the little girl away from her small town but you can't take her small town out of her...always the girl who wanted to climb the guava tree...

good start

"The world bursts at the seams with people ready to tell you you're not good enough. On occasion, some may be correct. But do not do their work for them. Seek any job; ask anyone out; pursue any goal. Don't take it personally when they say 'no' — they may not be smart enough to say "yes.""- from a starucks the way i see it ..as i read it this morning..i could not resisit the temptation of typing it out...
and to add more spie here is my horoscope for the day-it's a good time for taking risks with money or emotions. You aren't able to control yourself anyway typically, so you may as well go all-in! It might not pay off, but the ride is worth the admission price!

random

as i drove ...memories and dreams filled my emptiness...the fall colors were so beautiful , i remembered our drives to hill stations in summer..playing bombay as we drove through the hills..
life moves on, we grow up , we learn to accept reality and believe in our dreams...
the babies fill my world and the little things they do make me feel special..random thoughts fill my head and i should put them all away cos its 3 weeks to the exam...